I'm quite bored and in need of a job, the usual crack. Jobseekers tomorrow despite the fact the wankers don't pay me! HURRAH FOR JUSTICE FOR EX-STUDENTS!

Anxiety getting the best of me again. Its funny how your mind can make your body sick eh.

I also wish I didn't dwell on things so much. One tiny incident over anything, anything at all, and I'll dwell on it for days. Its rediculous.

Bleh, feeling a bit crap because people insist on arguing with me over nothing. Oh well, their loss!

Have a de-kegged Jim on top of my car!


Might read some Howl's Moving Castle to calm my nerves. Yay.

I thought I'd make a post with all my icons.
I only use ones I make myself.

Enjoy.





 
Two of my stamps from dA.

 

dA icons. (oldest -> newest)


(second last made by Lan but animated by me)

So yeah. Try not to steal any. Thanks.

Well what's happened since I last posted?

- My mum went back in for a bone marrow transplant September 5th.
- All was going well until the 14th she was rushed into intensive care unit.
- I moved to Newcastle on the 21st.
- I started university on the 23rd.
- My mum's health was finally improving by and by the October she was fully awake and trying to talk to us (food tube down her throat made it hard) for a couple of days.
- She suddenly fell back into a coma-like state and passed away on the 11th October.
(Whatever family that could make it said goodbye while the ventilators kept her barely alive, she was given a drug to slow her heart until the inevitable. Dad was by her side with her brothers for the last hour, I would have passed out so I had to stay downstairs with the others. My flat was 5 minutes up the road, dad rang me at 8am in hysterics. We were told what was going to happen around 10am. You don't know devastation until you've spent 13 hours in a hospital knowing what is coming next.)
- Her funeral was two Mondays after then, it was a beautiful service, the whole churchy thing was filled including the other large room where people had to watch via camera-to-screen.
- I couldn't continue with university as I was so I moved back home to Carlisle.
- I'm now looking for a job to last until I go back and try again next September.

So, as you can imagine, I'm distraught. I turned 21 a couple of weeks ago and just haven't really given a crap about anything. I'm obviously my normal self, but grievance has made me lie talking to her every night before I go to sleep. I dunno, its just something I believe I guess, I believe she's still here around us with everybody else. *shrugs*
She didn't deserve this. We were told it was septicemia that got her because of the line she had put in (so they didn't have to open veins every time she needed the treatment) which I always thought was not a good idea. Anyway, shes the most caring and inspirational person I've ever known, and theres no way I'll ever forget her - or anyone that has had the pleasure of knowing her.

- Dale proposed to me on our 3-year anniversary, which shows how much he really must love me, and of course I love him incredibly. No plans for a wedding yet, not until I finish university, way too expensive and grown-up for us at the moment.

I'm gonna run off now. Sitting in the living room watching the Simpsons and wasn't planning to be in a down mood again, need to lighten up somehow.

Laters.

Oh and apparently my rainbow is blue.

Sorry guys but my journal is private, not that anyone would be interested in my boring life anyway. I normally just post blogs on MyShit (I'm ashamed I admit) or come here to snark at the fabulous committee, deviantartsnark.

Feel free to add me as a friend and see what happens, you never know. I'm actually quite friendly.

People I'm not likely to add:
Tracers or people I've snarked who are trying to get one back on me. That'd just be stupid :P
Weeaboos.
Anyone with -chan or kawaii in their usernames (unless I know who they are).
Attention-whoring, pill-proscribed-bragging, woe-is-me, emoscene slappers or fashionably gay lying cunts.

People I'm likely to add:
Fellow snarkers.
People I know from dA, MSN, Facefuck, MyShit, etc. But not every tosser that looks me up.
/x/-lovers.
People I know in real life (how rare).
Fellow fans of Doctor Who, Bill Bailey, Spaced, Dresden Files, or anything else I'm interested in.
People who enjoy my dubs on YouBoob.
People who enjoy my music on MyShit.

UNSTABLE - mooooooooooooody most the time.
MUSE - artist and musician.

Simple as.

So far we've completed three Doctor Who dubs! Woo go us! I've plans to make a fourth hopefully through summer with Chez (at least, maybe Lan too) from a series 3 episode, you know which one Chez ;D

Dub 1: The Sound of Drums


Dub 2: Smith and Jones


Dub 3: The Girl in the Fireplace


And I've made two icons for someone from the end of the Doctor/Master video :) hope you like!


Avatar-sized one (under 40kb)

Feel free to nick them, they're pretty shit like, but ah well. I used the wrong program.